Am I Alone in This?

Don't get me wrong, SA is a wonderful husband but sometimes I feel that I am in this journey alone. I feel like the whole responsibility of taking care of Teddy and the house is all mine. Yes, I am home all day by myself but we have a colicy son that refuses to be put down. Even with a carrier there are still somethings that can't be done without help. It takes me getting mad before I get help. Yes, I can ask for help but at the same time, this is the stuff that needs to be done everyday and I shouldn't have to ask for help. I don't expect him to pull out a dust rag but unload the dishwasher! I don't think I expect to much.

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Bad Life?????

There is a blog that I follow where the blogger constantly complains how rough her life has been and continues to be. It bugs me? Sound a little judgemental? Yep, I would agree, seeing the title of my blog....

Don't get me wrong, my life hasn't always been the most pleasant or the easiest but I wouldn't change a thing. If I did, I wouldn't be me, I wouldn't be married to my wonderful husband and I wouldn't have Teddy Bear. These things make whatever bumps in the road sooooo worth it!

So the "bad luck" of an alcoholic father, a man-dependent mother, a dysfunctional family, a bad 9-year relationship, azoospermia, etc are not easy journeys but again these experiences allow me to appreciate my husband, son and life that much more.


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I think life just got easier!

I have been pumping exclusively since a week after giving birth. Always using both hands and I don''t like it because I am so limited. So I googled...

Hands Free Pumping made Cheap

45 more minutes and I will be trying this!

Okay so this totally works!!!!

Donating Eggs

Shhh.... Monkey is sleeping while SA makes breakfast before we head to church so what do I do... Blog! I follow several blogs where either they used donated eggs or donated embryos to conceive their children and that got me thinking... I wonder if I could donate my eggs? Am I too old? Will my obesity play a role in retrieval? Would anyone want my eggs knowing that I am obese? Here is what I found...

...donors are usually younger than 35 years old, in good health, and have a healthy family background.

I wouldn't want to donate my eggs until after we have successfully had our 2nd child which we aren't going to try to conceive until 2013 which means I would be 36 years old.

As far as weight, I have fluid in my lapband again and hope to lose a significant amount of weight (100+ pounds) before we try conceiving our next child. If I were able to lose this weight before I donate, technically I wouldn't be severely obese anymore. Obese but not severely obese. (UGH!)

This saddens me. At this point, we know I have good eggs and although this can change, they really won't be put to much use and will just be laying there. Someone should be able to put them to good use but it looks like at this point is just isn't meant to be.

Sorry been so long....

We are finally getting into a routine and getting Teddy over what appears to be colic symptoms. A little Zan.tac and My.licome have done wonders to bring back your happy baby. He has been sitting happily in his swing while momma reads blogs and daddy makes a late breakfast. Although as I type this, he is starting to fuss. Our little monkey has grown to be over 8lbs and gained an inch in length in a months time. He is getting soooo big.

Although I still have 6 weeks left of maternity leave, I am already struggling with the fact that I will have to leave him at daycare to go back to work. Hopefully I can make the most of the next few weeks with him!

I will leave you with a new picture of our little monkey!