Doesn't this picture say it all?

Ahhhhh breakfast was good. Now what to do for the rest of my day? Oh ya relax, play, nap, and eat some more..................​.........

It's good to be the king!!!! ;-)

Has it really been....

five months since I last posted? Wow! Lots of things have changed in those five months and I hope to get caught back up again and be a better blogger.

Hard to believe...

that my little boy is five months old! Boy how time flies in this sleep deprivation world that we call life. Teddy has been eating cereal for about a month and we decided to introduce "real" food last night and tried squash. OMG! He devoured that squash like it was nobody's business!

The housing situation is still in a holding pattern. We finally got our delinquency notice for the "first" missed payment. They are going to charge us $20 and report us to the credit bureau. Hmmmm... They are going to be reporting a lot more than that.

Please don't think that I don't care, I really do but at this point, I just want this whole process over with.

Updates

Things have been a little hectic around here but I will try to do the bullet post update!

1. No news on the house yet. I usually pay 15-30 days in advance so they won't be missing our payment until about now. Don't expect to get a word from them for another 15 days or so.


2. I started W.W. at the beginning of the year. I can't get my band tightened to much without it affecting my breast milk supply. So in an attempt to keep the weight from going on, I am trying this with my MIL. The first week I lost 3.2lbs and nothing last week. Meeting is tomorrow so hopefully the scale will go back down.


3. Not sure if I told you this but teddy will have to be circumsized when he reaches 6 months old to prevent UTI's with his VUR. They were also going to repair his hydrocele, however, as of last night, it appears to have fixed itself! Fingers crossed because that was going to be a longer recovery time!


4. We are in the process of getting Teddy's baptism setup. I am kinda ashamed that it has taken this long but at least we are getting it done.


5. I am getting a promotion at work which is very cool. Still not sure what I will be doing but just waiting for the big wigs boss to sign off on it. They were in Hawaii for a sales meeting (nice right!) so I am hoping it will happen this week.


6. I have made it (almost) to five months pumping. Hard to beleive. There are still days that I want to give up but the thought of paying for formula makes me ill, so I percervere. It helps that Teddy is now eating cereal very well twice a day.

I think that's it for us. I will leave you with a few pictures from his photo shoot this weekend!

I have lost my husband....

to a stupid game. I am sure you can all guess but just in case you can't.... Bl.ac.k O.ps... Ugh, thank goodness he at least waits until after dinner and Teddy is in bed but still. I walk out of the nursery and I get, "I am going to play my game." Should I demand that he pay attention to me? Should I demand that he do something around the house? Should I demand that he start to help me pack?

Whenever I go to bed, I always say "I love you" and "Don't stay up too late." and I get, just going to play one more game. Two hours later, he still hasn't come to bed. I was exhausted last night and asked him to do my pumping dishes which he said that he would. Got up this morning at 4:30a like normal and there were my dirty dishes.

I wanted to go get him up and yell at him. Instead I did the "mature" thing and made a lot of noise as I was getting ready in the same room that he was sleeping. (Okay not so "mature" but it was more mature than getting him up.)

Do any of you lose your husband to something like this?

A little Better

I feel a little better and not so "depressed" after "coming out" of the foreclosure closet. This was by all means not an easy decision for us to make. We are both in our mid-thirities and in a few short months will not have a home to show for it. However, we will have a roof over our head, a beautiful son and our little family will be together. After that what could a girl ask for.

In the meantime, I have started back to We.ight Wa.tchers to help the weightloss. I had gastric banding surgery three years ago and it was instrumental in helping me lose weight. With breastfeeding however, if I have to much restriction, my supply tanks and I really don't want Teddy to have formula. So, in combination with the lapband, I figured that getting back to a program will help me relearn good eating habits and hopefully get some of this weight back off.

Missing in Action

Hi all! I still check on you daily just a little hard to post right now. The last month has been crazy. We found out Teddy has VUR (Urine Reflux) and that caused a UTI which caused a very high fever. They think he will grow out of it but he has to be on daily antibiotics to help prevent UTI's. We have all been fighting colds in amongst the holidays along with the death of SA's grandmother and mine being diagnosed with Colan Cancer and having surgery. Things have somewhat settled down for us to realize other than having our mobile home foreclosed on, there is no way out for us. It needs about $7-10K worth of repairs that popped up over the last couple of weeks and we would already be taking at $7K loss on the house and we just can't afford to do it. This means that we are going to voluntarily give up our home and move in with SA's parents until they retire and then we can rent their home from them. I am not excited about this prospect because we have worked so hard but at some point we are going to have throw in the towel. SA found mold behind the water heater and with a "sick" as Teddy has been, neither one of us are willing to risk his health for our financial betterness. I am very sad and on the verge of depression at this point but trying to keep my head up. We have each other and our beautiful son, it doesn't matter where we live as long as our little family is together.

Ooopppsss

I started out so well on NaBloPoMo but after SA's grandma passed away, I lost all posting steam. We spent four days in Alexandria and Teddy got sick while we were up there and still is. Poor baby has to sleep in his bouncy chair so he can sleep sitting up.

SA has a dentist appointment this morning so I get to stay with Teddy for a little bit and go to work a little later. This makes my day, because he is the happiest in the mornings and gives great smiles.

Sadness

SA's grandmother passed away today. She was with her youngest son talking about S.P.A.M., coughed and then was gone. They think she probably had a massive stroke. This was a long time coming. We thought she was a "goner" a week after Teddy was born when she hadn't had a chance to meet him. We were fortunate enough that she lasted a couple more months and we had a couple of chances for them to bond. She was from Australia and met SA's grandfather when he was there during WWII. She loved to visit with everyone and cause lots of family drama. She will be missed!

Pumping

I am pretty proud of myself, I have been successfull pumping for 11 weeks now. Looking at on-line groups on FF, most people say that pumping is such hard work. I don't see it as hard-work (a little tedious at times.) Heck, while I am at work, it is a good excuse to get up from my desk for 20 minutes. Granted the mother's room isn't the nicest or cleanest but.... I get to watch Tudors at work 40 minutes a day. Who else can say that??? I try to pump 5x a day...

5:00a when I get up for the day
9:00a first pump at work
1:00p second pump at work
5:00p when I get home for the day
10:00 right before bed

On the weekends, I pump when Teddy gets up for his nighttime bottle instead of 5:00a. This allows me to sleep a little longer which is sooooo needed.

This allows me to give Teddy 6 - 4oz bottles a day plus 6-12 oz to go into the huge freezer stash. I am hoping to be able continue this until Teddy is 9 months!

Any Questions of me?

I follow a ton of blogs and have seen a lot of people do this.... Is there anything you want to know about me, SA, Teddy, Infertility, Weight Loss Surgery etc? Please feel free to post them to me and I will do my best to answer.

Thanksgiving

Hope everyone had a safe and happy Thanksgiving!

Stuck at Work...

It is sleeting/snowing here on the day before Thanksgiving... They usually let us "out" earlier on "holidays" but I guess not today. Total bummer which means my drive home is going to be a disaster!

However, I must say that I am thankful to be stuck at work because that means that I am lucky enough to have a job in these tough economic times. Although, we are by no means rich, we have enough to pay our bills and keep the roof over our head. We haven't had to borrow any money to get through adding daycare to our monthly bills.

Trying to Break Bad Habits Already....

Teddy loves to sleep with mom and dad....Love my kid but this is the only way he really sleeps good. I am talking 7 hours in my arms versus 3-4 hours in his crib. What's a gal to do? We put him to bed earlier tonight so that I could put in the crib several times before he would go down. At least then I could have a couple of hours before it is time for me to go to bed. Not sure that he will make it all night in the crib but at least this way I may be able to get a couple hours of sleep before he gets to come to lay in bed with mom and dad.

Another Day....

Another dollar... That's all work is now... Just a means to an end.... Just a way to pay the bills. Not that I ever strived for a fancy career but definitely not so much now. Just get me in and get me out. I told my boss at my review last year (after I found out I was pregnant) that I wanted a job change after my maternity leave is over. Now, I am not so sure but they already have offered the temp who covered my leave my job. No idea what I will be doing. The only thing is that I hope it will be an increase in pay and we could always use money.

Failure

I already feel like I am failing and I have only been back to work for two days. I feel like I am failing Teddy, SA, the house, me and work. Not working is not an option, I am the bread winner and I carry the insurance. SA takes Teddy to daycare in the morning and I do everything I can to make it as easy as possible for him the night before. I am trying to get as much done the night before so that I can get myself out the door on time without having to get up at 4:00 in the morning. I am trying to break the house up into "quadrants" so that we focus on one are of the house a week. This way we don't spend hours on the weekend cleaning the whole house. Where our house might not be clean all the time, an area of the house will have at least been cleaned in the last four weeks. (Wish I could hire a cleaner but I don't have the money!) All of this so I can spend quality time with Teddy but at the same time, I don't feel like I have any quality time with him. Then I realized today, that I am not asking for help. I told SA my frustration and he really picked up the ball tonight to help. I just need to ask for help and I am not so good at that....

Never thought....

I would enjoy a quiet Saturday at home as much as I did today. Got to cuddle with Teddy and he wasn't crabby like he has been the last two nights after being away from home all day. Amazing what a change like that can make in mood. Off to church tomorrow! Night all!

TGIF...

Been a long short week and I am exhausted! I think SA is going to let me sleep-in in the morning and take care of Teddy for me. Can't wait!

Well I Made It...

Today wasn't as tough as I thought it would be, but that was because Teddy went to my MIL's instead of daycare. She was staying home sick and he hasn't been feeling well, so we thought it would be best. I only called twice (once with SA and once with MIL) during the day and of course he was fine.

The sad or funny thing depending on how you want to look at it.... When I picked him up from my MIL's lap, he started crying. He was fine in the car seat and then again in the swing until he got cranky. SA handed him to me while I pumped and then he got really pissed and screamed until Dad picked him up. Kind of felt like I was being punished, I know he's too young to know better.

Evening with Monkey boy go fast! Can't wait for the weekend!

Ughhhh....

Teddy is sick, I am sick and I go back to work tomorrow. Not what I call fun. Oh well, I will try to post about our first day tomorrow!